The momentary lapse of the happily ever after….

Have you ever felt the need to meet someone you connect at all levels and leave the moment with the happy thought of its existence? No bickering, no awkward silences, no escalated expectations…just a smile on the face. Imagine the first time you held hands, or the time when you coyishly put your hand around the shoulders of the girl you liked. The clumsiness that you portrayed seemed cute to her. The first romantic dance, the ridiculously romantic moment of chasing each other and falling down laughing or perhaps the “being pansy” in the eyes of your friends and saying I love you innumerable times. Sometimes I wish relationships were finite with all such moments collated together.

I for one do not know what love is, I am sure a lot of you will be all ready to jump the gun on my very convenient idea of it, but isn’t it supposed to be this way…convenient? I have been on a movie watching spree this weekend with an overdose of romantic movies that are definitely not clichés. Take for instance, before sunrise…two people meet on a train, feel the obvious spark, roam around a town strange to them (it adds to the romance that the city is Vienna) and talk all night. The movie is primarily about their conversation (extremely interesting) and how they come in terms with the fact that this perhaps is the moment they should go back with and live to cherish, for the rest of their life. They meet 8 yrs after is a different story, but would it be too much of a gamble to let go of the one person you met by chance (or fate for the romantics), just so you can leave it with a smile on the face?

I understand the need to have a fair share of sad moments, more so you appreciate the happy ones. If you keep having the happy ones with someone, you might get bored of that. But I guess you have enough moments of frustration on your platter, to incorporate the same in your love life. It is like the drum roll before the first kiss, it always excites you till you have had it and after the kiss, you crave for more and the more just kills it.

Alright let’s get inspired from another movie, what if you had the power to wipe out the part of the memory with your lover, once it started to deteriorate and start all over with the same person. Keep having the moments without the knowledge of having them again and again. Kind of an escapist attitude isn’t it? But what the hell…the incredible invention of the freedom of thought saves the day for me.

For those who are appalled with every passing paragraph, a question. Would you cherish a moment more when you know it is forever or would you cherish it more if you know it is going to end…someday? Two years of college, a significant amount of school life, a couple of years in your first job or 10 days with the one you love. A happily ever after for me is more of a deterrent, than tears of happiness in my eyes.

So as long as I am not ready for the social (read acceptable) definition of love, the happily ever after, I long for the person who I connect with and who understands the same I do (who said I can’t be greedy) or a memory wipe out clinic and meeting him again with all the firsts….the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind.